My Motherhood
Today I have been away from the kids all day! And all day all I could think about is what are they doing? Is Jay Jay ok? What is Jett up to? I just missed them so so much. I often times get so overwhelmed with them. I feel like I need to just go in the room for ten minutes and just take a breath, but I can't. Or I can't wait until bed time rolls around and I'm just pushing through the day putting my son's favorite movie on or taking him to the park to make the time go by. And as I type this it makes me sad that these emotions take over at times, only sometimes because they are so sweet! How lucky am I to be their mama ! I want to stay present in these times of adventure, growth, dependency. I love them so much! It's the sweetest thing too because when I'm in my most overwhelmed moments Jay Jay, unknowingly or maybe he knows, will grab my leg and kiss me or do something so sweet that my heart just melts!
A friend of mine posted the other day how the most challenging job she has is the most rewarding! It is so true! Motherhood is challenging, a part of you dies but yet so much more is alive and just so amazing . Everyday I have so much to be thankful for and how sweet these boys are. What they do to my heart is incomparable. I'm blessed and highly favored!
Tonight as I hold my baby I just have a sense of joy and peace because I'm so lucky and blessed to be able to learn so much from two beautiful little souls and be loved so unconditional that even in my darkest or not the best moments they still love me so sweet and gently! Thank you God!
these are definitely my lemons!
Mama Jord