Well Today, September 25th, is Jett's original due date! My little man is almost three weeks old!! What a blessing and a whirlwind at the same time! Im sure this applies to most moms that go from one kid to two but I just can share my experience. I always heard going from one to two is harder than two to three. SO going into this mommy hood of two I was nervous. I was excited because I knew they would be close in age making them close overall and especially after having another boy! How cute is it going to be when they are best buddies, not so cute when they fight if they are anything like me and my brother lol!

It has only been 20 days and its been a whirlwind of emotions and feelings. For the most part positive! Its so sweet having a newborn again. I can see why women continue having more and more kids. This phase will be missed when Im done. But the reality of the situation its been overwhelming at times.

First, the physical tiredness. My body feels good but my boobs, my boobs are so sore! Not so much anymore but those first few days was rough. Having engorged boobs and cracked nipples and a toddler who wants to snuggle up on my chest was just.........unbearable lol. I love to nurse but I'm back to leaking and spraying everywhere. Not to mention soaking my shirts and trying to figure out my outfit for the day that will be accessible to nurse easily while out.

I love to sleep. I REALLY loveeee my sleep! It worked out with one because although he gets up at 6am-7am, I get a full night of uninterrupted sleep and nap time! Nap time was always MY time. They were a time for me to either catch up on sleep or get whatever I needed done finished without any interruptions. Well now nap times are OUR time, mine and Jett's time. It seems that most times Jay Jay goes down for a nap Jetty boy decides to be up. Night times are ruff. Me and Jett co-sleeep. I can just picture myself now sitting up dosing off while he is eating! With one it works out perfect because you get to sleep when they sleep. So those times during the day while they sleep you can catch up. Then, eventually they sleep less during the day and more at night, well most babies. Then you just really get used to the sleep schedule and your not as tired, which Im sure I will this time around its just a bit harder. Not to mention Jay Jay learned how to open his door so now during the night instead of falling asleep like he normally does he has been coming out of his room. The first few nights we sort of allowed it and he slept in the bed with me. However, I get THE WORST sleep with him because he moves around so much. So I started locking him in his room, and it worked. I will unlock it once he is sleep so he will get up and come in my room at 6am asking for BITES, ready to eat. Another regression in sleep for my Jay Jay man is on multiple occasions he has woken up about 3/4ish and came into my room. SO I am trying to get that back in order because like I said, I LOVE MY SLEEP. My mornings are very hard. After broken sleep I get tired. I feel so guilty because I sometimes just turn a movie on for Jay Jay and fall asleep for 20 min. I just want to be able to give him the attention he needs and deserves.

The next thing that is difficult is time management! The first time going out alone, getting ready took wayyyy longer than I expected. I gave myself about one hour and I should have given myself three. As Im trying to shower, with the shower open to keep an eye on both kids, its chaos. Jay Jay is standing on the toilet turning the water on and getting everything soaking wet, thank goodness Jett was peacefully sleeping. But when it's finally time to get Jett dressed, I change his diaper put his clothes on..literally two seconds after his pants are on he poops again. This boy pooped like crazy in the first couple of days, he still poops a lot a lot but not as much. Getting in and out of the car is a task. I have to secure Jay Jay because he will run off. The first doc appointment we went to I didn't put him in the stroller, lets just say it was a disaster.

There are many struggles because now instead of caring for one its double the pleasure. Im trying to find the balance in managing both with finesse. Not too sure if I will ever accomplish that but as long as WE are good I am ok with a chaotic routine lol. Between changing diaper, melt downs, feedings, spilled food, spilled drinks, nap time, dirty clothes, dishes, house, bills, spit up, sjgfhidunjbkfgjbnihgjlnkmfhiugb lol thats what my brain feels like.. I am just trying to remember to give myself a break and take care of me. In order to make all of these things possible my well being has to be on top of my list also. If I break down not too sure who will take over the fort! Mamas hold things together no offense to dads because their role is important too!

In light of all the trials motherhood of two brings, the joys outweigh! Im excited to see my two boys grow up and be best friends! Jett is such a sweet boy and a perfect addition. Im excited to see Jett's personality as he gets older. I don't think I could have asked for two sweeter boys. I think Jett is going to be a mamas boy :). He loves his kisses already! I am remembering to enjoy my newborn because before I know it he will be off being an independent little toddler!