Today I have been away from the kids all day! And all day all I could think about is what are they doing? Is Jay Jay ok? What is Jett up to? I just missed them so so much. I often times get so overwhelmed with them. I feel like I need to just go in the room for ten minutes and just take a breath, but I can't. Or I can't wait until bed time rolls around and I'm just pushing through the day putting my son's favorite movie on or taking him to the park to make the time go by. And as I type this it makes me sad that these emotions take over at times, only sometimes because they are so sweet! How lucky am I to be their mama ! I want to stay present in these times of adventure, growth, dependency. I love them so much! It's the sweetest thing too because when I'm in my most overwhelmed moments Jay Jay, unknowingly or maybe he knows, will grab my leg and kiss me or do something so sweet that my heart just melts!

A friend of mine posted the other day how the most challenging job she has is the most rewarding! It is so true! Motherhood is challenging, a part of you dies but yet so much more is alive and just so amazing . Everyday I have so much to be thankful for and how sweet these boys are. What they do to my heart is incomparable. I'm blessed and highly favored!

Tonight as I hold my baby I just have a sense of joy and peace because I'm so lucky and blessed to be able to learn so much from two beautiful little souls and be loved so unconditional that even in my darkest or not the best moments they still love me so sweet and gently! Thank you God!

these are definitely my lemons!

Mama Jord

Two of my best friends got married recently and as I was viewing all of their AMAZING wedding photos, a few of which I posted, it made me think of the never ending questions that people always ask. For the phase in my life that question is, "Sooooooo, When are you guys going to get married?" I think I get asked this the most out of anything else when people see me. And although I don't mind, I don't know. It often times makes me think how rude of a question it really is. When people get married yes people assume but you never know when your getting married. Just because we have kids doesn't mean we should rush into getting married. I would not want to get married because I have kids. It doesn't work that way. If we aren't ready then we aren't getting married yet. I really don't mind the question because I do it too but the more I'm asked the more I realize its funny because its really none of peoples business. Literally the most random people will ask me, and Im not directing this to any one person because like I said I do it too.

This doesn't just go for When will you get married? It goes for Whens the next baby? Or when are you having a baby? When are you getting a boyfriend? etc.

They are definitely innocent questions but should be considered because you never know what some one is going through. I think the universe read my mind because as I was typing this post, this article below popped up on my Facebook. Check it out. In summary people would ask when this woman was having a baby? It was very painful for her because she had fertility issues. These are personal questions. It was just a reminder to think twice before diving into someones life because you never know the circumstances!

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My Motherhood

The never ending question...